One of the bravest memoirs published in recent years. A story of resistance as bold as it is clarifying, as intense as it is real. A survival guide to dealing with suffering and the paradox of embracing loss in order to reconcile with the important things... In 2012, the writer Anna Starobinets discovers, in a routine visit to the doctor, that the child she is expecting will not live. What begins as the chronicle of a family decision ends up becoming a horror story. What to do when the future collapses on the small screen of an ultrasound machine? Starobinets narrates with heartbreaking humanity her pilgrimage through the health institutions of her country, her subsequent trip to Germany and the mourning for her lost son. You have to look is the intimate x-ray of a silenced trauma, the testimony of a woman who faces alone a system that does not take her into account, a descent into the deepest depths of pain and at the same time a song to life. A revealing text whose publication triggered a storm in her country by addressing the taboo subject of women's power over her own body, and the personal and family aftermath of the loss of a child.